Universal understanding of love.

Love is so simple.

We make it harder than it is. Everything is connected to love. Even the smallest deviation from the simple understanding of love can cause pain. Keeping our eye on the prize is a sure way to feel love. I have had many stuggles with my insecurities, my life, and the people that came and went through it. I used to feel so much attachment and regret to all the things that went wrong. It made me question myself, even though I knew God. many tears, many times I prayed alloud for God to take me because the pain for me was too much to digest. It drove me into a dark time, whjere I was outside...suspicious and alone. I was lost in mental anguish and self torment. I got over weight, gray before my time, and felt rejected by everything I knew. It effected me on such a massaive scale that I would spend hours alone, crying. believing it was my lot in life. That love will never find me.
It took a signifigant experiance to happen to me to open my eyes...in a BAR of all places..(showing Gods true sense of humanity)..that God sent me a messenger of the most unlikely kind. After that simple experiance, the answer came to me through the next few weeks. It changed the way I saw myself, the way i saw the universe, it changed me so dramatically with in 3 months, that i cant believe i was ever the person I was before. The answer to the question of what is universal love? How can we continue to be loved after all that we have commited and suffered in vain.
The bible is an age old text that offers many remedies to the soul, but sometimes, you need to hear it from a person for it to sink in. It's not that we dont have faith in God, its more so that we dont have faith in ourselves. Love understanding comes like an alighnment of the planets...It comes rarely, and when it does, you never forget it. I never believed before that sometime so simple could change the way i see love forever. he saw my pain, he saw that i had only one desire in my heart, to be loved to have love, to give love, but I was crippled by time, and unable to see clearly anymore. It was his gift to me.
He promised me nothing in that moment, but gave me everything. I dont know why I am writing about this, all I can say this. I am delivering a message. I dont know what part of it is the answer for you, or even if there was a question, all i know is I was compelled to come here and comment. Some people, no matter how twisted and human we are...know the answer more than others. I hold no affiliation with any church. I hold no title as a Christian, other than child of God, nor do i desire any of these things. The understanding is not my own. All I know, is whether I am single, or whether I am in a relationship, I have found peace. peace so to the point I feel NO NEED to chase someone. No need to have a lover delivered to me. if I have a special person, I don't know, nor do i care, because I have been giving a gift, and it is more valuable than any relationship I can attain on this planet. I wish I could share it with you. I come to you as a kindred spirit and I want to comfort you with the knowledge that if there is someone out there, you need look no further than ur house and neighborhood. You have already found many of them. They are all around you. Friends, family, eveyone. regardless of race, religion, orientation, intelligence...they are around you. To hold the smallest grain of resistance to love is to misunderstand it completely. We cannot serve two masters, yet we cannot split love down the middle as if we were throwing out the parts we dont like to suit the Guardians of the older generation. We must water our spiritual garden with ever growing and expanding wisdom, and the awesome part of that is that wisdom, like us, grows and expands, so the more we learn the more there will always be to learn. This is good in the sense that if we want to, we never have to feel old because there will always be room for being a student of the cosmos! xoxo